I have been doing many things. For many years previous to this I had been always at least somewhat depressed or knocked down by anti-seizure drugs. I can say that, for right now, I am not depressed nor severely energetically impaired my anti-seizure drugs. It has not been often in my life I have been able to say this. Usually in the past this non-depressed state was precipitated by some grand event: when I was younger it was always falling in love, but I’ve been with my husband since 2004/2005, so sometimes other things can trigger it, getting a dog, leaving a toxic workplace, being in a burlesque troop. I know this state can be fleeting, so I am trying to prolong it by prioritizing rest and setting boundaries. (Ugh I sound like a self help book.)

It’s a different type of existence. I make more mistakes, I do more embarrassing stuff, I don’t manage all my tasks. For example, I haven’t washed my face today and it is nearly 10:00pm. Training my dog has been very hard to get in, and I haven’t been walking her every day either. Today I have done neither dog task. (Sorry Gozer!) Getting groceries, cooking food, and doing dishes seems to occupy the lion’s share of my time. I first put cleaning my AeroGarden out on my to-do list IN AUGUST. I looked at it today, and decided today it still wasn’t the day.

And yet: my husband says I’m thriving. That I haven’t been this well in years. I got flowers yesterday just because. Very little food is being wasted. I am all the way back to attempting to do my part to avert the climate catastrophe. I went to a recycling webinar put on by the county and bought beeswax coated cotton to use in place of plastic wrap, as was suggested. I have been bringing my reusable bags to the grocery store Every Damn Time. I started using shampoo and conditioner bars. It brings great joy to attempt to reduce plastic, it is an important mitzvah to me.

Well, my 30mg of edibles are kicking in so that’s my signal to sign off. Have a good week friendos.